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To be OK!

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 "Learn to be OK with not being invited, included, or considered." For the last few weeks, I had restless nights.  Like I have a full day, working out, cooking, cleaning, taking care of my kids and husband's schedule, even my own writing assignments. Normally, after a full working day, you are tired, and you definitely should fall asleep even before your head touches your pillow. But somehow, sleep eludes me. The reason is not complicated. I think, I mean everyone thinks but my brain is a factory or a sub shop that is open 24/7. It just never stops.   There are so many things running through my head and sometimes it is hard to take a break. Constantly thinking about "Why did this happen?" and "How am I supposed to accept and move on?" Hey, don't worry guys, I am not talking about some tragedy or life-altering event. It is simply that out of hundreds of people I have encountered in my journey (of life) some are not happy with me. Not happy is putti...

Proud of "ME"!

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Wednesday, January 20, year 2021 is the day marked in golden ink in history forever.  The inauguration! First Woman Vice President of the United States. Really a very proud day for almost everyone. I was sitting in my living room, watching on the TV this historic event take place. I could feel the pride in having an Indian originated vice president and female.  I mean it is about time, that we get what we deserve and more. We should be recognized and appreciated for simply being a girl, a woman, a female species.  So I was in my house, feeling proud and emotional and I see out of the patio, a gardener was going about doing his task of blowing the fallen leaves out of the way. He saw me looking at him and he waved, I waved back and smiled. He went about doing his job. My husband was working from home doing his job. My kids attending online school, doing their "jobs". So in short what I mean to say, something big happened, something life-changing and historic. However, my q...

Tidings that brought change!

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 Do you plan your birthdays? In my entire life I have been groomed in such a way that I don't expect much from others, but too much from myself.  As in I hold myself up to very high standards of behavior and morality.  I have observed there are some people who plan meticulously to celebrate themselves, well I applaud them and stand by them. Because no matter what it takes guts to plan so much for yourself. The point being, I don't plan anything for myself.  I don't expect anything from anyone. That means when it is my day as in my birthday I don't expect gifts or cakes or anybody to make a big deal of the day.  This humility if you want to call it that or sheer stupidity on my part, is my mother's upbringing of me. Though don't get me wrong my mom and dad used to celebrate my birthday really well. As in the whole package, cakes, gifts, guests friends everything.  As I grew up and ventured on my own, I remember my 22nd birthday when I was totally alone. I wa...